aphanon_meme | Part 11 comes after Part 10

Part 10 is over! Part 11 is here. If you haven't checked the challenge entry, the challenge has been extended until Part 11 maxes. Hopefully that is enough time for people who are busy with finals and such to find time to enter, if they'd like to!

Should I mention that the number 11 scares me? I really don't like that number. Like how Natalie Portman hated the number 5 (or 6?) in Where the Heart Is. But a higher number. Well, anyway.

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This is soooo wrong. My best friend really likes this guy in our class, he dresses well and is not that bad when it comes to looks. She thinks he might be gay because of his mannerisms and other things, still she likes him and I just laugh. The problem is that the guy keeps looking at me instead, I’ve caught him several times staring and actually trying to meet my gaze when she‘s not around. This is very uncomfortable for me because although I do find the guy attractive, I just get embarrassed in the end and avoid his gaze (like China does with Korea, only that China probably just gets weird out). My friend is very confident and good looking, so I just didn’t want to look like dick and tell her this. However, that’s not the end of the problem. It turns out that I have a HUGE crush on HER, I like her so much-it has been two years since I’ve been in love with her. I feel so good when I’m with her, she’s smart and talented and pretty, with a few flaws but then again who doesn’t have them? This love cannot be, for she’s ubber straight, but doesn’t mind other people with different sexual orientations. There’s also the slight pain that I feel when she talks about other guys she’d like to go out with…sometimes I found myself wondering if she’d got out with me if only I were a guy. One time she even implied that--of course, she has no idea that I like her because I keep pretending that I’m also after other guys.
It’s not like I’m trying to pretend that I’m straight, she kinda knows that I sometimes dig chicks too……BAAWWWWW My life is SO hard!

Anon, what do you think? Should I tell her one day that I like her, or take the secret to my grave? I don’t want to lose her friendship though

FML

Well, it depends on how you think your friend would take it. You say that she doesn't mind people with other sexual orientations, which is good.

But you say she is completely straight? So you just want to tell her to get it off your chest, or actually get a reaction from her? Because both have different endings...

I was in a situation similar to this, but from your friend's point of view, so I can understand to an extent. It all depends on how you think your friend will handle it, really. <3

Sorry that I fail at advice.

That's what I'm scared of, I'm afraid she'll get weird out and decide to distance herslef from me--I know her pretty well to know that, and that she'd also feel sreally crappy because she cannot return my feelings.

so yeah, I guess I just want to tell her to get it off my chest, but the reaction.....

Oh I see, if you don't want to say it's okay, but how did you handle the situaion? Perhaps looking at it from another point of view will help me figure out what to do.

No, I wanted someone to listen, so your reply was enough for me ~<3

Of course I will tell you if it will help!

Ah well, my friend told me one day and at first I must admit I was a bit freaked out. Because you know, she was my best friend for a few years and I wasn't expecting it. She told me she wanted to tell me, even though she knew I was straight and that she felt like a bad friend. I told her it was alright , even though it did feel awkward.

I talked to her on the phone later and it was still awkward and I never brought it up. She slept over that same weekend, and slowly I forgot.

I am glad she told me if it made her feel better, and I am hoping your friend is the same.

I see, thank you so much for sharing this with me! I think that i now know what to expect, hearing it from someone else makes it all the more real and really helps to put things into perspective. I guess it's only natural that one reacts like that after seeing them only as friends, I failed to see that until now....

You are a wonderful person to say that you were happy she told you--not many people can handle it that well. Your friend sure is lucky to have you around~ And yes, maybe if I'm lucky enough, the same will happen for me as well....Thank you.

orz it's so weird receiving advice from someone with the icon you have there, lol.

No problemo!

I hope that if you decide to tell her, she will take it well. It will probably be awkward at first, but like you said, it is expected, so don't freak out. She could also be afraid that if you tell her that you would stop being her friend for some odd reason. I thought that about my friend.
Remember that she will be just as nervous as you~

Just stay strong, and I wish you the best of luck. -hugs-

-looks at icon-
Oh...I suppose that is odd. PFFFF xD

I was thinking the same for awhile; that after telling her I'd stop hanging out with her, it was probably fear of rejection and trying to get her out of my mind. However, after this I think that if I really care about her, then I shouldn't be so selfish and think about her feelings as well.
Yes, i think I will tell her someday soon...

Thank you so very much, this is really helping me out! *hugs back*
Another reason to love the anon meme~

XD

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