i made a new years resolution to be more productive in fandom, because i have been inactive for quite a while (partially due to my irritation with the culture of a couple of my fandoms, but that doesn't solve anything - be the change you want to see, you know).
and then immediately got slammed with a huge project with a crazy deadline. which is fine, mind, because believe me i do need the money and the experience, so on the one hand i'm very happy but on the other hand i have never been more stressed in my life. i have never handled something of such scope and with such a large/prestigious company before. i have also never handled something with such an extreme rush deadline. this last week i found i'm working roughly 14-16 hours a day and depressingly i'm actually a bit behind schedule to meet my swift approaching deadline so it's definitely time for ramping it up to 18-20 hour days, which is fine, i can live on 4-6 hrs sleep i just haven't ever had a situation in which i needed to pull that for three weeks straight.
i'm usually a pretty calm person but for the first time in my life i think i kind of understand when people say they're on the verge of a breakdown. shit's crazy, man.
venting here cos i don't want to vent to friends/family, i mean this is a big break for me and it IS a positive and lucky thing overall and they're all congratulating me so i don't wanna put a downer on the buzz but holy shiiiiiiiiiiiittttttt what am i doing what am i doing wahhhhhh.
alright, i'm done, i feel better now. see you in three weeks, meme o7
Re: ITT: how stressed are you right now
i made a new years resolution to be more productive in fandom, because i have been inactive for quite a while (partially due to my irritation with the culture of a couple of my fandoms, but that doesn't solve anything - be the change you want to see, you know).
and then immediately got slammed with a huge project with a crazy deadline. which is fine, mind, because believe me i do need the money and the experience, so on the one hand i'm very happy but on the other hand i have never been more stressed in my life. i have never handled something of such scope and with such a large/prestigious company before. i have also never handled something with such an extreme rush deadline. this last week i found i'm working roughly 14-16 hours a day and depressingly i'm actually a bit behind schedule to meet my swift approaching deadline so it's definitely time for ramping it up to 18-20 hour days, which is fine, i can live on 4-6 hrs sleep i just haven't ever had a situation in which i needed to pull that for three weeks straight.
i'm usually a pretty calm person but for the first time in my life i think i kind of understand when people say they're on the verge of a breakdown. shit's crazy, man.
venting here cos i don't want to vent to friends/family, i mean this is a big break for me and it IS a positive and lucky thing overall and they're all congratulating me so i don't wanna put a downer on the buzz but holy shiiiiiiiiiiiittttttt what am i doing what am i doing wahhhhhh.
alright, i'm done, i feel better now. see you in three weeks, meme o7