I'm meeting my s/o in person for the first time in three days and I'm really, really, really nervous for various reasons. Obviously it's daunting no matter what to meet someone you met online, but I'm really shy and have social anxiety on top of that. Also, we've arranged to meet several times before, but it always fell through due to unforeseen circumstances. Now my s/o sprung up the visit on me without me being able to have time to prepare myself, and go figure they'd pick to meet after I've gained weight. I wish I could have them put it off till I could have some time to lose it because I really wanted to look my best for a first impression, but last time we had to cancel plans, my s/o was really depressed about it and talking about how people were acting incredulous over them about not having met me yet. I know it'd be hurtful to even ask after all that and it might be the last straw. I'm afraid they're going to be disappointed with me appearance/social-wise And we're inevitably going to have sex but I'm a virgin so that's not terrifying me at all ahaha..

I can't even talk about it without tearing up out of fear so :')